The first time I entered a photographic competition was as if all of me had come to a point where I wanted to prove to myself that I was good enough. It wasn't about actually hoping to win, which of course is the actual point, but for me it was about conquering fear. Being encouraged by admirers of my work constantly for an extended period of time that I should enter competitions was not enough to convince me that I was capable of producing a photograph worthy of being entered into a competition. It took an insane amount of courage to just let go of the constraints of an uncomfortable zone I had cowered into and just enter the damn competition. Which is what I did. My nerves thundered to the beat of my heart as I pushed ‘post’ that sealed the entry. There was no turning back for me, it was done. Waiting for the results was almost as agonising as natural child birth, the sex of which is unknown.
Fear is such a funny thing; it strangles the very life out of us and inhibits our growth in any area we wish to pursue. It is a mental jail, a stuffy prison cell we willingly shove ourselves into, slamming the gate shut without ever wanting to understand the realisation that we in fact hold the key to our very own freedom. No person, not our parents, siblings, children, friends or family can turn that key regardless of how much they entice us with the fresh air of independence that awaits us if we only stick the key into that lock. We have to make that choice. We are the ones who have to push ourselves, take the first step, get out of our own way and just do it, despite the consequences, which may end up being the best thing we ever did.
I took a chance. I entered that Abstract Competition, without even fully understanding what Abstract Photography even was. I won. It was a moment I will never ever forget. It was a turning point into believing in me and the love I have for this art form. It was a moment that sealed the deal for me; a moment that helped me realise that amongst thousands of professional and brilliant photographers out there, somewhere amid them, is a place for me if I continue to keep believing in myself.
“You know, sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage. Just literally twenty seconds of just embarrassing bravery. And I promise you, something great will come of it.”
~ Bejamin Mee, We Bought a Zoo
How I see it...
I see, speak and write in metaphors because I feel there is much we can learn from nature, people and our surroundings as depicted in my photographs and why I enjoy sharing my thoughts. Not in any attempt to convince or convert you to my way of thinking, seeing or feeling but to share how I see and experience MY mind map of the world. You at no time have to agree, all I ask is that my views and the views of others who wish to express theirs are kindly respected. So relax, get comfy and just enjoy. Happy reading!