This, to date, has to be the single most heart-breaking experience I have had when it comes to my love of all things small and living, especially spiders. I did something today that remains to haunt me yet it made me think about how we attach human emotion to the law of nature and how it is not our place to interfere, even though our intention may be good. My daughter called for me when she saw a bee get caught in a False House Button Spider's web. I knew it would be a good photo opportunity so I snatched up my camera on route to the scene. To watch the bee struggle so fiercely in the sticky silk while the spider was trying desperately to get a good bite was more than I could stand to bare and because of how important bees are to our environment I could not continue to take photographs as I felt like an accomplice to a murder. I put my camera down and pulled the bee out of the web while the spider scrambled for the safety of her hiding place. It was in those few seconds as I watched the little arachnid disappear that I realised what I had done. I had appointed myself as a ‘do-good-er’ agent by deciding what I thought was best for the bee. It was not at all my place to make that call because the bee was so tightly wound up in silk that its right wing was unable to come loose and I was afraid that if I tried to wipe the web off it would sting me and die anyway.
I was so torn by this complex situation because spiders are, before anything in the insect realm, my first love. I took it into my own hands to remove her really big catch, one she most likely won’t get for a while to save another important little life that inevitably will not survive anyhow because it cannot fly. An important lesson was learned today…let it be, if it’s too much for my sensitive soul to handle, turn around and walk away but nature takes its course the way it is intended, there is no emotion involved, it is what it is; survival of the fittest and all that. It is not my right, no matter how good my objective is, to impede on the way that natural law unfolds. I’m annoyed with myself for playing some sort of self-appointed god.
How I see it...
I see, speak and write in metaphors because I feel there is much we can learn from nature, people and our surroundings as depicted in my photographs and why I enjoy sharing my thoughts. Not in any attempt to convince or convert you to my way of thinking, seeing or feeling but to share how I see and experience MY mind map of the world. You at no time have to agree, all I ask is that my views and the views of others who wish to express theirs are kindly respected. So relax, get comfy and just enjoy. Happy reading!