I've had a little adventure these last few days...discovering things around me while also discovering things within me. It's always a two-fold journey this life; mutually beneficial if you allow yourself to see more than what meets the eye.
So I damaged my lens...a photographers WORST nightmare. I dropped it in an effort to keep it safe...don't you just luuurve irony? So when this unfortunate event took place I quickly packed up my camera, popped it in the bag and could not drag myself to look at what the possible damage might be. I closed the bag and hoped beyond all logical reason that my lens would magically fix itself so that the next time I opened the bag, voila...figment of my imagination and the lens was good as new. Well you see now...we live in a hard world that bitch slaps you back into the cold grips of reality's icy fingers more often than we change out underwear, well at least mine anyway.
Cold hard slap was that the lens was broken and it needed to go to Nikon for an assessment. I felt ill throughout my entire body and soul and I was very, very, VERY angry. SO angry in fact that I literally made myself ill and gave myself a lovely cold sore that donned itself aesthetically to my left nostril. There are these strange moments that life presents to us that come disguised as really gross and disgusting trauma but on closer inspection are blessings of the highest kind. Like this one: A very kind and generous soul loaned me his 100mm macro lens while mine is in ICU and boy have I been taking advantage like a fat kid given free reign in a candy store. I've been discovering things I initially fell in love with that I had forgotten about. Things about myself too; that I can bounce back with dogged determination not to let a change to something that means the world to me transform me into a bitter and twisted old bat.
I discovered that sometimes I have to get a little uncomfortable, that people will say things that piss me off but they are things I NEED to hear to push me back into discovering what I am really made of and that life is a series of adventures that always has a balance...the push and the pull of getting me further in my steps towards becoming who I really am. I learned that what seems disastrous initially is a wonderful gift of growth. Only IF I am able to embrace and acknowledge it instead of returning the gifts to sender.
A little evidence of my journey within...
How I see it...
I see, speak and write in metaphors because I feel there is much we can learn from nature, people and our surroundings as depicted in my photographs and why I enjoy sharing my thoughts. Not in any attempt to convince or convert you to my way of thinking, seeing or feeling but to share how I see and experience MY mind map of the world. You at no time have to agree, all I ask is that my views and the views of others who wish to express theirs are kindly respected. So relax, get comfy and just enjoy. Happy reading!