Written 13 March 2013
This photo has a story. It was taken in 2012 and it's compositionally terrible, however it was an awakening time for me, a metaphor for my life at the time as I had opened just like this rose while I felt I was among those who did not understand anything about me or who I really was. I went to find a quiet place to hide and pray. I found the perfect place that was secluded from the noise inside and out of my head. I sat quietly contemplating with myself while I watched the sun make her early morning entrance brilliantly through the dense trees and into my secret hideaway. I closed my eyes and as I began to softly speak, my tears started to roll slowly down my cheeks on impulse. I had never felt more alone as I did right there. I continued to pray quietly, aware of the little world around me waking up; birds greeting the morning with their cheerful songs, bugs buzzing briskly past me, the welcoming earthy smell of the damp ground beneath my feet.
My eyes were still gently closed when a dazzling beam of light that had found an opening through the foliage connected directly with my eyelids. I was suddenly filled with light and I could feel the intensity of its warmth wash through me and all over me. I continued to sit there for a few moments, taking the indescribable moment in for as long as my choked breath could, keeping my eyes shut.
After what felt like an eternity, I opened my eyes and what lay before me is a moment in my time here on earth that I will never ever forget. There were sharp beams of intense sunlight darting through open spaces of flora everywhere. I looked down toward my stomach and there was a single strand of silver spider web gleaming from what the light was picking up which was attached to my naval area that went straight out in front of me, connecting to a tree a short distance from me. Connected to that tree was another web, connecting to another tree, connected to another. Everywhere I looked were glistening spider webs attaching me to everything around me. As if I had weaved my own web while praying for clarity. I was definitely no longer alone. The answer was already there, all I needed to do was open my eyes.
We are all connected, to everything and everyone whether we like it or not. Through those connections to each other, whether long or short term, we will find doorways to secret passageways of our soul that only become apparent if we have the courage to venture down what appears dark and lonely. One must brave the dreadful dark to experience the all-encompassing light.
I am not the same person I was then...I don't think I ever will be.
Clarity is a wonderful thing if you just ask.
How I see it...
I see, speak and write in metaphors because I feel there is much we can learn from nature, people and our surroundings as depicted in my photographs and why I enjoy sharing my thoughts. Not in any attempt to convince or convert you to my way of thinking, seeing or feeling but to share how I see and experience MY mind map of the world. You at no time have to agree, all I ask is that my views and the views of others who wish to express theirs are kindly respected. So relax, get comfy and just enjoy. Happy reading!