2015 gave me this:
There are some genuinely beautiful, generous people in this world who have no agenda to keep score and who actually just want to see me succeed, be happy and who are willing to help me in times of need, even when I have insisted that I am fine (the acronym for FINE intended). Incredible people who have restored my dwindling faith in humankind.
There are also some nasty people out there with a serious agenda who do not give a shit about me, want to see me fall with my face in the gravel who THINK that by what I reveal about myself on Facebook is the sum total of who I truly am, automatically giving them the self-appointed right to assume they know all of me and by that it gives them some almighty power to belittle and tell me that I am not who I say I am even though they have never spent 30 precious seconds with me in the real world. They've shown themselves quickly and their motives are as grossly transparent as they are. When you give someone enough rope they eventually hang themselves.
"Friends" come unexpectedly and go the same way. So does family.
I got the least recognition from the people I most sought it from. I must stop that in 2016 and forever onward.
I still vehemently maintain that politics and religion are poison and tools of manipulation, especially if left to the people in the wrong positions of power.
I've learned that if not for last minutes nothing gets done, even when I have had a whole year to prepare. I've also been shown that no matter how impassioned I am, how much work I put in and how much of that time is spent away from my family, it still does not nearly cover the bills.
I have discovered that there are givers and there are takers and that's just the way it is, I can either accept it or fight it but fighting is exhausting and serves to prove that I am none the wiser.
I have seen ego maniacs eat humble pie. I have seen astronomically beautiful things that I would like to remember forever, heartrendingly painful things too that I would no sooner like to forget.
I've heard harmonic symphonies; through beautiful words uttered by the people I love or by the magic of how music has punctured my soul. I too have heard some folk spit shards of cutting glass from their mouths into the face of others as well as mine.
I've been both inspired and deflated tremendously.
Life has equally touched me gently and manhandled me like a bitch.
Flavours have floated gloriously over my taste buds just as some things have been disgustingly bitter to swallow.
I have soared from emotional heights that I never wanted to come down from and plunged to disparaging lows in the same breath that gives me life.
I have discovered things about myself that have presented themselves as opportunities to grow or stay stagnant and that those choices are as challenging as they are exciting to make.
My incredible husband and my amazing children are my every single thing. Everything else is secondary.
Yet through it all, I have understood that life is a delicate and difficult balance; it is impossible to have one without the other. As much as some may think I have my head floating in the soft clouds of Lala Land, please be assured my feet are firmly on the hard grounds of reality. I do not miss much. Everyone is replaceable and one is only as good as their last performance. People get bored and move on to the next piece of ass...only the good ones stay and those are few. Cherish them.
I have also come to realise that I need to desperately master this fine art of balance because I am still wobbling horribly with my flailing arms out like a new born gymnast on this balance beam called Life. I have fallen off too many times to count but I have also stayed on longer than I ever thought I could. I am far from perfect and beautifully complicated.
Yet this life, my friends, is all we have...with all its strange ways, with all its gorgeous flaws. Life is pungently beautiful. Thank you 2015. I'm real glad you happened. It's been a sensory overload.
How I see it...
I see, speak and write in metaphors because I feel there is much we can learn from nature, people and our surroundings as depicted in my photographs and why I enjoy sharing my thoughts. Not in any attempt to convince or convert you to my way of thinking, seeing or feeling but to share how I see and experience MY mind map of the world. You at no time have to agree, all I ask is that my views and the views of others who wish to express theirs are kindly respected. So relax, get comfy and just enjoy. Happy reading!